Random thoughts after an overnight shift

This morning, for the first time, I noticed the red orange leaves on my favorite tree in my front yard. I wonder if they've been this color for days and I haven't noticed.. could very well have.

Awareness..

I want to take my son to the Atlanta Zoo before it gets too cold out. Yes, it's still in the high 70's most days lately and its nearly Thanksgiving. Insane.

I was reading back through my blog yesterday.. through the archives that span almost three years! I didn't realize I'd had this place so long.
I found myself amused, reflective, proud for writing.. even if I have been largely sporadic - I have some record of my thoughts and life.

I've really got to up my music supply. Since I restored my laptop, I have only about 9 or so cd's ripped... it's quite sad.
I need new cd's for my car. I am so completely burned out on everything I've been listening to.

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as Erykah Badu would say.. "what a day.. what a day"..

It's been one of those. One of those indescribable-do-I-have-make-me-crazy-written-upon-my-forehead kind of days.
But the good news is.. I'm still alive. And sane to boot (for the most part)

This is the little human being who helped me laugh tonight when I felt like I was at wit's end...



Thank you, my sweet little angelcakes.

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I love you, Immune System, really.

I have a new-found respect for my immune system.

I'm going on over two weeks of being ill in some way or another. First, it was what felt like strep throat, combined with loads of sniffles and sneezes. Then it got so rough I had to force myself to a germ-infested, scary walk-in clinic. (I found out from my mother, very sadly, that our general practitioner passed away two weeks ago. Bless him.) Turns out I have bronchitis, so I got some scripts from the Dr.

One of them was for Gauifenesin with codeine.. AKA - Robitussin plus codeine AKA - the devil. And here I was excited that I got codeine for a prescription. Oh wee! I get to be loopy and high'ish while I'm getting well! Oh hell no! That cough syrup made me sick as a dog. (that's what I get, right!?) I ended up on the verge of vomiting for about 2-3 hours after taking two little teaspoons of that stuff.
No more for me!
I'm a plain ol' over the counter Robitussin lady from here on out.

So I'm on day number three of taking antibiotics and and just hoping for the absolute best. I'm trying to believe I'll wake up tomorrow feeling refreshed and well, ready for work.

I missed work today (first day I've missed throughout this stint of illness) I'd spoken to boss #2 and let him now this morning, then regardless, boss #1 sends me a text message hours later asking "Where r u?"
Really? What we have here sir, is a total lack of communication! Wasn't that at the start of a Beastie Boys album? Song? Something..

Take care of yourselves! Get rest, and.. dammit miss work if you must.
And wash those hands! I sure thought I was.. I'm a sanitizer-totin', handwashing type and I'm still bogged down with this flu season stink.

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Long, long time - No Blog

Since May? Really? I oughta be ashamed.. I am!

I feel compelled to blog again. I just wanted to make a "wedging my foot back in the door" post.

It's after 4am and I can't sleep a wink tonight. It's just awful. I'm fighting bronchitis and trying to work at the same time.
Man on man I hope I fall asleep shortly!

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Grateful

So, my fun-filled weekend has come to an end, but I'm not dreading going back to work a whole lot.. I need the structure, it's good for me.

The NIN/JA tour show was absolutely magnificent. I seriously can't even find the perfect words to describe it. It met my expectations and more.
Nothing beats feeling free in the music, singing along, dancing in your own little personal space bubble, walking barefoot up a dewy grassy hill, sweat (yes, sweat), hanging with fun people, one of those being your awesome husband.
I'm lucky.


The songs that Nine Inch Nails played and the range of emotion they are able to pull me through was intense. I was so, so glad that he put 'Something I Can Never Have' on the set list. I got so lost in that one, so I had to kind of climb my way back to reality.

(LYRICS)
I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me
In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.
Come on tell me
I just want something I can never have

Jane's Addiction's backdrop intro was rad. I desperately wanted to get a good picture of the hot and shirtless Dave Navarro but I didn't manage. The side screens weren't showing up well on camera. But I did SEE him.. and it was sweet. Ha. Jane's did a nice show as well. We left about 3/4 through their set.

Not to mention, I ran into and got my photo with Margaret Cho. ;)

If you're interested in seeing pictures from the show, I've posted a set on my Flickr account. Feel free to add me.

I think there's another rock show in my future.. I'll have to update when I find out for sure.
On the lawn with the fans, I am truly in my element. One group of people together to enjoy something they love.

It's gorgeous, really.

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